Partly, it's the fact that this may be the most UN-Christmasy holiday season in my life. I'm not alone in finding this year's Christmas prep difficult.
It's not being able to travel to visit family, AFTER having spent Thanksgiving with just the two of us (although, in some ways, a very satisfying day, with prepping the turkey dinner donation, Zooming with the kids, and just enjoying spending time relaxing with each other).
Of course, the election situation is causing me heartburn (and, some heartache, as well - I'm truly heartbroken, not just at what has become of our country, but at the apathy of so many Americans to some rather obvious theft).
I've been tracking down people formerly on my Christmas list, and having to accept that I've lost touch with them. It will be a smaller number of cards that I will send, but still quite important to let them know that I miss them and love them.
I have made some progress on household organization; the task has helped to soothe my nerves.
It's hard to plan ahead; we truly have no idea what lies ahead of us, either personally or as a nation.
I'm in frequent communication with my sister, who is caring for both an aging husband (20 years older than she is), and a brother, retired on medical disability, who needs daily support with managing his medical conditions and staying in his own house.
I'm not able to travel much at this time. I'm stuck in SC, and working on my own issues - household, financial, medical - to be able to be much help.
She's stressed and tired. Just ONE of the many who are continuing with their lives, managing family support, lack of sleep, and worry - a lot of worry.
So, the election is not at the front of their worries. They already have a full plate, and just can't manage it. I understand.
But, the unsettled condition of the nation's future, financial concerns, and the horrible prospect of a complete Dem takeover - politics, management, financial, health, education, and - God Help Us - national defense - is causing me lost hours of sleep.
I pray. I stay in contact with selected Patriots, and take heart at the locals who still remain faithful.
And, I wait. Ready. Edgy. Prepared.
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